Morning Cuddle

Chael got home from PT at 7am.

After getting undressed and all he came into my room and expressed he wanted to cuddle. We'd missed last night's bedtime curl-up as he went to bed before 10pm and, well, I never did.

So we proceeded to have a lovely cuddle.

Our normal configuration is spooning on our right-hand side with him as the big spoon, his right arm stretched out under my pillow and holding my right hand. His and my left arms wrap around my waist.

So we're lying there relaxing, enjoying the spooning. It's a nice time of warm bodies, closeness, gentle touches, and teasing comments... Such as:

(he starts moving his legs around and pulling around the blanket)

Me: what are you doing? (wondering if he's getting up)
Him: I'm adjusting the blankets
Me: okay

(he gets the blankets how he wants and returns to spoon-position)

Him: sweaty girl
Me: I'm not sweaty, you are
Him: that's what you always say
Me: cuz it's true!
Him: then why is there sweat on you?
Me: because your touching me!!

And so after a laugh we go back to relaxing with him sometimes drawing circles on my back or running his hand down my left arm.

Then Jonesy sees what's up and decides he wants all in on the cuddle action.

Eventually we turn so I'm the big spoon.

Eventually, we get up.

And then he went and filled my tea cup again.

Today

Was a good day. Mostly, as far as actions go,at least.

I went to Smooth Solutions for a consultation and my first laser hair removal session (underarms). The people were friendly and it wasn't particularly painful... definitely not compared to other stuff I do, hair and not-hair related.

That damn cold gel they put on first was the worst part! lol.

Later Redeye42011 and -Lily- came over for a while and I put needles into Redeye with help from Lily. It was a nice little visit and playtime. :)

After they left I tinkered around a bit and then started getting some top drop... feeling melancholy and tired. So, I got myself around and went to yoga to see if that would stall it off. Yoga was rough tonight after such a big day but I did pretty good despite it. Unfortunately it didn't end my drop it just postponed it til afterward.

So, I spent some time laying down reading a book and generally doing comfort-cuddling by myself with the tv on.

As I said, the doings of the day were good and happy.

Unhappy, as some of my friends know already, is the state of my Jonesy cat. He's puking, not eating, and acting standoffish and old... when a few days ago you would've thought he was still only a year or 2 old; usually is bright eyed, runs around playing and chasing things, purrs if you so much as look at him, follows me around the house and curls up on me whenever I am still for a minute. Now there is something very wrong and the doc doesn't know what it is. I take him in tomorrow morning for another checkup to see if they can figure it out.

He and my spouse are really the only close family I have and have had for the past decade+. It was horrible losing Pixel last year, now I think Jonesy only has days left unless something changes. I won't be at AllCon much after all, I don't wanna be away from home if he dies.

So most everything planned for this weekend is off unless the vet has some new magic meds for him... I'm hoping they'll have some stronger anti-nausea meds for him than what I've been giving him now and he'll start to eat. We'll see.

Theravada and yoga

I've long had a bit of a following to the basic Buddhist beliefs, as well as being Christian, but some things Chael said got me thinking some more about it. So I started looking into it and at this point it seems I've long been a Theravada Buddhist without realizing it. I'm not tied to that "diagnosis" yet, as there is so very much to read and find out, but so far in my learnings that seems the case. So I'm turning my study towards Theravada and ordering some books on it and such to see if that's right and trying, in general, to align myself even more with the "Buddhist Basics" of the Four Noble Truths, the Eightfold Path and the Five Precepts.

Today is an Uposatha (observance day, quarter moon) and for Theravada Buddhists that points towards following the Eight Precepts for the day. I am trying this. We'll see how well I do at maintaining them.

Also, on taking Jonesy to the vet the other day I found that almost next door to the vet a new Sunstone Yoga studio opened up -so it's quite near my house. I signed up for their introductory "10 days of yoga for $10" deal and am going to my first intro class in a few minutes.

I always love yoga when I practice it, but I never maintain a long, solid practice. I'm going to try again... my biggest problem is my social anxiety. I start out okay and then it builds up to where I can't handle going to whatever place I've been going to (yoga or other). I'm again working to do my best against this.

Went to the new tiny and cheap salon near my house and got my mohawk back. Wednesday they are putting in longer strips of purple and pink to set off the purple and blue coloring I have right now in it.

Time to go.

Update

So it's been a couple of months. Both very little and very much has happened, depending on how the time is looked at.

I've spent a lot of time at home just chilling with my cat, as usual.

I've been taking my medicines really well and telling a difference by them.

I've spent 2 weeks visiting my parents in upstate NY.

I've started painting again.

I received a Wii and Wii Fit Plus board bundle for an early, early birthday present from Chael.

I've gotten my house mostly sorted.

I went out drinking with my sister for New Years Eve for the first time (she took me to a couple local bars that I was still too young to go to when I left home).

I've attended several BDSM social events in the area, including Bound & Determined II, but mostly just weekly and weekend get-togethers. Last Saturday night I was painted on with tempera paint by a friend at an event focused around such things. Lazy fun... then a Very Chilly shower afterwards because the hot water only sort of works at the club.

I don't recall if I mentioned this in earlier journals, but my packer (Mr. Softy Small (I also bought a medium but it was too long for my preferences) arrived and I've enjoyed wearing it -and sometimes my corset at the same time.

I'm sure more exciting things have occurred, but I'm blanking now that I'm in front of the computer.

My ears healed up beautifully from the scalpeling. They are both at 3/4".

Jonesy lost 2 pounds for no known reason (been acting and seeming to eat just fine), but now that I'm back from visiting my mom (while he was kenneled with his vet and eating fine there, they said) he's not eating much here... I'm keeping an eye on the food bowl and worrying a little, but not much yet.

It freakin' cold here, too.