Chael is talking about buying me a correspondence course for my pleasure. I'm looking over three main options and we'll see if/what I choose (web page design, locksmithing, and astrology lol). Meanwhile, I'm learning to knit and practicing my algebra for home entertainment.
I'm putting no money in savings these past few and upcoming months. I've a cushion built up there that isn't being touched, but all my cash otherwise has been being put into my travel aspirations. Right now I'm "booked" up through September with trips to family, to friends, BDSM events, and spending time with Chael before he deploys.
In between traveling, I'm trying to be more out of the house here and getting social. I'm slowly establishing myself as part of the communities here and meeting nice folks.
I desperately need to go grocery shopping today. *sigh*
Monday, June 15, 2009
Monday, June 8, 2009
Cats and nomadic aspirations
I love him but he gets in my way. Both literally, of course, and figuratively. I'm speaking of Jonesy, my cat.
I wish to be nomadic for a while, no set home just traveling at will, couchsurfing, hosteling, camping, etc as I see the US and maybe more of the world. I've loved the short tastes I've gotten of this, such as when backpacking Europe, and want to jump into it as a lifestyle for at least a few months or year... whatever, until I decide to stop.
But there's Jonesy... my loveable little fluffbutt. He's so affectionate and I don't know what to do with him. I can't leave him at my mom's: they not only don't want to watch my cat but also their pets are indoor-outdoor pets because they live far in the country. Jonesy can't be allowed to do that as he's never learned about the outdoors, being purely indoor raised for 12 year almost.
So, I may be in the weird position of renting a small apartment for my cat. Not being truly nomadic, because I don't want him to be lonely, but rather havinga very cheap, small place for him and a minimum of my stuff and putting all my free cash into traveling out of this home-base.
But where for the apartment? Dallas is ideal, except the costs. Copperas Cove where Chael lives has some very cheap and perfect apartments, but it is out in the middle of nowhere and I'd have to take Jonesy away from his regular vet -who is also who I board him with when I'm gone more than a couple-three days, so that instills fresh complications.
I love him so much, I have to do what is best for him in this goal. I won't change thigns in such a way as to risk his health and happiness. I believe in pets as friends and that we've a responsibility to any we take on; he's better than family, he's chosen.
So I may be getting a Dallas apartment for my cat. I'll just try and find a small, cheap but clean one and downsize my home. That'll keep my social contacts here possible, too, hopefully.
But I'm really interested in traveling some more again, seeing new things again, exploring my world again!
I wish to be nomadic for a while, no set home just traveling at will, couchsurfing, hosteling, camping, etc as I see the US and maybe more of the world. I've loved the short tastes I've gotten of this, such as when backpacking Europe, and want to jump into it as a lifestyle for at least a few months or year... whatever, until I decide to stop.
But there's Jonesy... my loveable little fluffbutt. He's so affectionate and I don't know what to do with him. I can't leave him at my mom's: they not only don't want to watch my cat but also their pets are indoor-outdoor pets because they live far in the country. Jonesy can't be allowed to do that as he's never learned about the outdoors, being purely indoor raised for 12 year almost.
So, I may be in the weird position of renting a small apartment for my cat. Not being truly nomadic, because I don't want him to be lonely, but rather havinga very cheap, small place for him and a minimum of my stuff and putting all my free cash into traveling out of this home-base.
But where for the apartment? Dallas is ideal, except the costs. Copperas Cove where Chael lives has some very cheap and perfect apartments, but it is out in the middle of nowhere and I'd have to take Jonesy away from his regular vet -who is also who I board him with when I'm gone more than a couple-three days, so that instills fresh complications.
I love him so much, I have to do what is best for him in this goal. I won't change thigns in such a way as to risk his health and happiness. I believe in pets as friends and that we've a responsibility to any we take on; he's better than family, he's chosen.
So I may be getting a Dallas apartment for my cat. I'll just try and find a small, cheap but clean one and downsize my home. That'll keep my social contacts here possible, too, hopefully.
But I'm really interested in traveling some more again, seeing new things again, exploring my world again!
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Munch tonight
Was good to get back out and see some local faces. Had some relaxed conversation -to include geeking out on about WoW- and just enjoyed a night out of the house with friendly folks.
Am going to miss a couple events this weekend I wanted to go to, but told Chael I'd come down to visit... from here til deployment getting together is going to be a bit hit and miss, so I don't want to bail on him when we know we can visit.
Anyhow, next week is going to be socially busy. I have 2 munches, a party, and a few days of helping setup for that party. And in the meantime I must go and get myself a costume put together for said party. I'm thinking I'll be a water nymph, but having settled for sure... Koneko clued me into a magic/costume/etc shop in Ft. Worth and I googled it tonight, I'll likely go tomorrow and see what I can find.
I'm leaning towards attending FloatingWorld even though it's close to deployment and may overlap with Chael's block leave a little. I ran it passed him and he didn't seem too put out by the idea of me going, so I may. Leaning that way but haven't decided... must eye finances and timeframe a leetle more before sure one way or the other.
Grammar and spelling are giving me a hard time right now, it's too late at night... beddy by.
Am going to miss a couple events this weekend I wanted to go to, but told Chael I'd come down to visit... from here til deployment getting together is going to be a bit hit and miss, so I don't want to bail on him when we know we can visit.
Anyhow, next week is going to be socially busy. I have 2 munches, a party, and a few days of helping setup for that party. And in the meantime I must go and get myself a costume put together for said party. I'm thinking I'll be a water nymph, but having settled for sure... Koneko clued me into a magic/costume/etc shop in Ft. Worth and I googled it tonight, I'll likely go tomorrow and see what I can find.
I'm leaning towards attending FloatingWorld even though it's close to deployment and may overlap with Chael's block leave a little. I ran it passed him and he didn't seem too put out by the idea of me going, so I may. Leaning that way but haven't decided... must eye finances and timeframe a leetle more before sure one way or the other.
Grammar and spelling are giving me a hard time right now, it's too late at night... beddy by.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Monday, June 1, 2009
Agape & Eros
Agape first to get it out of the way:
I've been blessed with a lot of love in my life. People I have loved, those who have loved me, and a precious number with who it was mutual.
There are those I've known and loved only a short while and those that it's been 15 years of loving. People who are better than family because they are chosen. People I'd give so much for and who I crave to be near... to take care of and be taken care of.
Not all of those are mutual, and that's okay. Loving someone even one-way is worth it, so long as one isn't hurtful to themselves over it. I'm careful not to cross that line and to take care of me, too, but otherwise I enjoy it.
For those I love and am not with, I miss you. Some of you know who you are, some of you don't. I hope life is treating you well.
For those near or soon to be, I look forward to the special you-ness that draws me to care so and being in your presence again.
For that one I recently seem to have lost track of indefinitely, I hope it's because your life is so full and happy right now that you just have no time. I hope you found that person you need and have the life you deserve, you're a good boy.
I'm thankful to whatever powers that be that I've been so lucky to have these experiences. To feel this way and to be treated so by such wonderful people in this life.
Eros:
I need fucked. My libido is such that I feel I could die from it. I need dominated, forced, hurt. I need the smell and taste of a male near me, over me... the feel of him in me. Pull my hair, slap my face, talk dirty to me. Push me to come again and again til I cry and want to stop. Leave me tender and raw the next day and exhausted from the efforts. Grip my arms til they bruise, bite my lips and neck and pussy. Shove me to my knees and make me gag on cock.
Wear me out and make this craving ease. Overpower me and let me just be animal for a while together with you.
Grrrrrrr. I've no one here right now to have this taken out on me by.
I've been blessed with a lot of love in my life. People I have loved, those who have loved me, and a precious number with who it was mutual.
There are those I've known and loved only a short while and those that it's been 15 years of loving. People who are better than family because they are chosen. People I'd give so much for and who I crave to be near... to take care of and be taken care of.
Not all of those are mutual, and that's okay. Loving someone even one-way is worth it, so long as one isn't hurtful to themselves over it. I'm careful not to cross that line and to take care of me, too, but otherwise I enjoy it.
For those I love and am not with, I miss you. Some of you know who you are, some of you don't. I hope life is treating you well.
For those near or soon to be, I look forward to the special you-ness that draws me to care so and being in your presence again.
For that one I recently seem to have lost track of indefinitely, I hope it's because your life is so full and happy right now that you just have no time. I hope you found that person you need and have the life you deserve, you're a good boy.
I'm thankful to whatever powers that be that I've been so lucky to have these experiences. To feel this way and to be treated so by such wonderful people in this life.
Eros:
I need fucked. My libido is such that I feel I could die from it. I need dominated, forced, hurt. I need the smell and taste of a male near me, over me... the feel of him in me. Pull my hair, slap my face, talk dirty to me. Push me to come again and again til I cry and want to stop. Leave me tender and raw the next day and exhausted from the efforts. Grip my arms til they bruise, bite my lips and neck and pussy. Shove me to my knees and make me gag on cock.
Wear me out and make this craving ease. Overpower me and let me just be animal for a while together with you.
Grrrrrrr. I've no one here right now to have this taken out on me by.
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